Stop & Go

It has been 12 days of thinking in the present. My natural state of thought is to zero in on, and stay with, what the future will, would, or could be? This philosophy has failed.

Yes, I know. I know. I should have been less dumb.

The great news about understanding your own misguided, sometimes motion-less, but emotional, direction, is learning one has the choice to stop.

So, I stopped. I ended my extended thoughts; when will I be in a relationship, when will my bank account grow and when will I get published? I paused the plotting of plans to change current circumstances when these very stories are simply out of my control; “in six months I’ll have this, then that.”

I have not given up on my goals; I have just changed the approach to them. I am not sure what I am supposed to do, except to think in the present; “I am writing, I am paying a bill, I am signing up for an on-line dating service.” My 12 days of education have taught me that on day 13, I will wake up happier than when I did two weeks ago. Now, that is a worthy future.

What was it that prompted me to stop? I will tell you, but the truth and trick is, there is no stopping.

See you tomorrow!